It’s been raining for weeks here at our place.
I used to dread the rain. Every drop made me sad. It also means that I won’t be able to go outside and do errands. I used get really blue when the rain is nonstop. Ironically, I now love the sound of rain, though it’s still limited to mornings. It is comfortable to drink tea and write on rainy mornings. It is cozy, cold but not too much. Rainy mornings create the best environment for writing.
On PLE preparations
As I vowed, I will lessen going home on weekends. I’ll keep it to once a month since I have to get serious about reviewing. I’m still doing flashcards, and attending Pathology lectures. As far as the review goes, I was both amazed and overwhelmed with how much Robbins has updated. There were tons of revisions in the 10th edition. It is good because it means that Science is advancing but on a medical intern’s end, it is overwhelming. I’m a bit worried with anatomy as well so I guess I’d have to restart anatomy coloring book sessions. I plan on coloring one page a day. It’s baby steps but I know that in 286 days, this effort would come into fruition. To anyone reading this, please pray for me, I need all the prayers that I can get to let me pass and top the boards.
On turning 29
Yes, my dear readers, I will be turning 29 in a few days. It’s quite surreal because I never in my wildest dreams thought that I’ll be doing all the things that I am doing right now. Ten years ago, I was this confused teenager, sad and depressed, however, I knew that I wanted to serve the people by becoming a medical doctor. Back then, the situation was immensely difficult. I thought I wasn’t going to graduate in university because we just didn’t have the money to sustain my studies anymore. I was even sure that I was going to file a leave of absence for a semester. It was just too depressing and yet ten years later, I am a Post Graduate Intern. This life is fucking amazing. It feels surreal to think that I’ll be a medical doctor in ten months. I never would have guessed that this plot twist would happen. Life is beautiful indeed.
On weaning off of social media and streaming apps
If I would have to choose what would be the best decision that I’ve made last year, it is weaning off of social media. I deactivated my facebook account in the last quarter of 2022. I archived my instagram photos and deleted the app in my phone. Recently, I also lessened watching shows on Netflix. Getting off those platforms had such a positive change in my soul. It was indeed worth it. Was it easy? Definitely not. I would get depressed because I wasn’t interacting that much online. I felt extremely isolated. Looking back, the rewards are worth it. I could last a day without scrolling on facebook or instagram. I compared my life with other people less. My life did not crumble because I haven’t been posting anything. To make it simple, life went on even with one less human online. Addictions are hard to break but the reward is definitely worth it.
On being with love of my life
I rarely write about my partner because he is a very private person. But since it’s our monthsary I have to at least mention him in this blog, he doesn’t even read this Every single day, I can’t help but think about what I did right to deserve him. He just provides me the blanket of safety and the source of warmth that my soul requires in order to function in this chaotic world. He is the best gift that the Universe gave. It’s funny because I can write about my previous relationships before easily. I can describe every single detail of every moment, but the instant I’ve been with my partner, I was literally out of words to describe how loved, supported, and contented I feel. I also never thought that it was possible to be in a relationship with such a beautiful human but, I am one lucky girl. He was the best choice, the best gamble that I bet on. I didn’t expect that I would find myself in a healthy relationship. But thankfully, I worked on myself and found someone who also did the homework, and when we met, it just clicked and the rest is history. I hope that any person reading this would believe that genuine love exists. My advice: Keep on living your best life and somehow the Universe will send your soulmate when you are ready.
That’s it for today’s ramble. What are you up to, reader? I hope you are in a good place, and if not, I hope you have the courage to live even just for the day. Everything takes one step at a time.