Oh hello there. Ever since I came back to the Philippines, I haven’t written that much. I haven’t blogged probably because I had so many activities. I worked, reviewed for NMAT, spent quality time with family, dated (epic fail), got into medschool and now I’m in medschool so I don’t have time for my hobbies. But anyway, here’s me trying to make up for the lost writing time and write what’s in my mind because if I don’t I might go insane?
You won’t regret following your heart.
I’m a strong believer of following your gut instinct. I don’t consider following my gut feeling as a failure. In fact it made me learn a lot more in a faster way. In short, I failed big time and made mistakes because of being reckless. Could I have chosen better? Definitely. But would I wallow in anger and self-hatred because of the choices I’ve made? No. I won’t. Never. In the end, those mistakes made me grow as a person.
Hardwork pays off.
You can’t control your genes but you can control how you play with the cards you’ve been dealt with. I practiced “more work, less complaining.” Let me tell you, it works. Life is hard as it is, but I learned that the more you work on solving the problem instead of rambling about it, the better you get at tasks, I did better at work, scored higher than my previous NMAT, and managed to get into the medical school of my choice. I worked my ass off.
You get used to the pain. Time heals all wounds.
Forgiving hasn’t been easy particularly to someone whom you trusted a lot. Never put someone on a pedestal and think that they won’t do anything to hurt you. No matter how much a person values you at the present moment, there’s no guarantee that things won’t turn around. Believe that you are capable of rising stronger than you’ve ever been. I got the apology that I never expected. I’ve forgiven that person. (Pats myself on the back.)
Medical School is not hard. It’s Fucking Hard.
I honestly thought it would be easier for me to handle the busyness of medical school but goodness, it can eat your life. I have exams every Monday, commitments, etcetera etcetera. Sometimes I don’t even notice what day it is. This path that I chose is one of its kind I guess. I just try to remind myself why I chose to pursue this profession and who am I doing this for.
The Universe has a Plan
Time and time again, the Universe surprises me. I never thought I’d experience everything that I went through at 24 but the world is funny. Shitty things happen but miracles? Yep, they do. I was crying four years ago, asking myself why can’t I pursue my dream, but here I am, almost done with my first semester. All heartaches are worth it.
A year of not writing has also been a year of learning.