Today I woke up early for my medical exam. I was terrified as usual as to how I’m going to maneuver Metro Manila. I never really stayed here for a long time, longest would be two weeks tops.
Bangkok was filled with friendly people and then there were less snatchers, kidnappers, and probably drug addicts. My fear stems from stories that I saw on social media and in real life.
But just the same as my stories of being lost in Bangkok was, it was in fact, easier to find my way in Manila. Maybe, my past experience taught me how to interact with strangers and use Google maps to your advantage.
Same as the puzzling routes in Manila, this life still baffles me. I have choices to make and responsibilities that I can’t ignore. I thought making a decision for yourself is easy. But no. You have to think about the people who rely on you, and who would be affected by your decisions.
What gives me peace amidst this chaos in my head is the thought that,’I don’t need to get it all figured out.’ That getting lost and afraid is normal. That patience and hardwork bears fruit. That taking care of myself should still be paramount above anything else.
Amidst the fear of getting lost, I still managed to put on my suit of bravery, and yes, I got to my destination. Life is a cycle of getting lost and finding treasures along the way.
Well, I’m good. Here I am lying in bed reading a nice book, and breathing. It’s okay. Everything’s okay.